Ballerina Meditation

I've started doing a blend of ballet/yoga a few mornings a week about six months ago and it really helps ease my periodic anxiety. I think I'd be a much happier person if it were socially acceptable to leap instead of walk. The ballet/yoga routine is something I made up and it varies each time, including basic positions/stretches to jumping around the living room. >:)

There's nothing in particular to be anxious about, and I've felt this way enough times to realize that it will end, no matter how paralyzing it can be in the moment. The unfortunate side effect is that I blow up when I otherwise wouldn't since I'm already on edge. Like two days ago when gnome and I argued about the ethics of forced abortions as a method of population control in China.. fundamentally agreeing with each other, but arguing regardless. And yesterday when I was told I was a poor caretaker of the only person I care about. Knowing the person and the situation, there was no reason to get upset, but of course given my starting emotional state..

Why don't we all leap around from place to place? I remember vividly the first school dance I attended, in middle school, feeling uncomfortable because I have no rhythm to dance to whatever songs were cool at the time (Ace of Base?), and I would have preferred to improvise ballet moves. Ah.. if only my prefrontal cortex were smaller >:)